waiting…

“and the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom” Anais Nin

Today is sunny and bright, the snow is melting and it is just a matter of time before everything is in bloom once again. Today is a contemplative day, I seem to have them quite often.  Life seldom unfolds in the exact manner we expect it to. Often there are great variances between our expected outcomes and the reality.

When I started my adventure into the blogging world nearly two years ago, I had certain notions, ideas and plans I imagined would take place in this small space, in the big arena of the world wide web. I imagined I would be able to devote my time consistently to tend and nurture it and grow it far beyond what it is at the present time.

Life created some distractions along the way and often it did not matter how much I thought I wanted to expand my thoughts and experiences on these pages, it rarely happened as I believed it would. I look back over the past two years and conclude that what was taking place is something akin to a metamorphosis. A shift from one place to the next. A time to reflect, refocus, get quiet and not rush things.

My interior design work lessened somewhat significantly over that time, perhaps due to world markets, but perhaps not.  My desire to write increased and I was introduced to a wonderful local writers group which I joined two years ago as well. My life at home changed too; having met a dear man, after being a single mom for fifteen years, we married within six months of our first outing, I must say it has been quite seamless. I am also planning to teach interior design classes through our local community education program this summer.

So there have been many things percolating over the last two years. To the outside world, just as with the dormancy of winter, it would appear little is taking place. But then the time comes for a rebirth of sorts, to realize that the waiting was not for naught, but to move forward in gratitude.

Part of my moving forward includes being part of an e-course presented by Susannah Conway called ‘Blogging from the Heart‘. It is a six week class geared toward creative personal bloggers who want to hone their skills and reflect more of themselves in their posts. It seemed to suit where I am now and I was most eager to join the class. It has been very insightful, clear and well laid out and we have only finished week one. Very much looking forward to what is planned for the upcoming weeks. I hope to share the impact and insights this class reveals.

Time has it’s own lessons and sometimes learning to wait is one of the most complex lessons to be learned. Understanding that the wait is part of the growing process.

With that I shall wish you a lovely weekend xx