being…

These words came to me early yesterday morning before I was fully awake. I used to have many thoughts and musings in the wee small hours of the morning, but for the last two years those glimpses have rarely been present…until very recently. They started again only last week and I am so glad they are with me again.

Nearly two years ago I wrote about these musings in a writing assignment titled ‘between the dark and the daylight’ for the writing group I belong to.

Here is part of what I wrote then…

“Toward early morning my dreams fade in and out and this is the time I am so often captured by some inventive or intuitive thought. The perfect way a letter should be started, or the best way something should be written. The most sensible solution to a design problem I may have been having. The perfect words to relate something to my daughter, that during daylight hours just does not become clear no matter how much I ponder it. This time of the morning is sublime. I revel in how clear all the answers seem to be. I so often wish I could somehow download my brain at that very moment and capture all the insight. Alas, this is never an option. If I am very fortunate I can capture one small part of all the creativity my mind has so generously laid out before me. It takes incredible concentration and fortitude to get my thought onto a piece of paper. Just like swirling wisps of the candles extinguished flame, so are my wonderful musings in my early morning dream state.”

That was just as it happened yesterday, I had to struggle to get the words onto a piece of paper before they escaped my mind. I am not exactly sure what they mean, but the words seemed so powerful in the dreamy consciousness I was in. I think they are words to reassure me… that at whatever pace things are going, wherever I am at or however I see things for the future, I am being enough at the moment.

Do you have these awakenings in your early morning hours? xx